Poliblog

Today I decided to spare us all from the infuriating political quagmire. Truly I did. Yet like so many things in life, once I got started the message took on a life of its own… so I am going to let it have its breath and will save the blog I was thinking I was going to post for another day.

Please everyone, please give this some thought… I have said over and over again that our government’s claims that  health reform is a  service to Americans, is really a guise that our govt has run out of money and health reform, as they see it, is a way for our govt to get some cash flow, so therefore it is my belief (strong belief) that health reform is really about how the govt can stop a sinking ship… known as their own asses. I have also added in prior blogs that the health reformers words are hauntingly familiar to those posed when helping America’s poor get affordable housing… which indeed, we all learned the hard way that greed led to the mortgage disaster… which in turn led to the many many many foreclosures… which in turn led to the tarp… which in turn led to the “change”… which in turn led to the bank bail outs… which in turn let to the fall (and several americans losing their pensions) in wall street… which led to the govt take-overs of the banks… which led to the loss of checks and balances within our govt (for whatever they were worth at the time, they still held some accountability)… which led to the govt bail out take over of GM… yadda yadda yadda and the words that started it were “We have a moral responsibility to assist America’s poor in affordable housing.” So I do not know about the rest of you… whether you are black, white, malado, yellow green orange purple or blue, but when I hear, “We have a moral responsibility to make sure all Americans are insured.” I have images of Casper flying over head, pointing his little white-sheeted finger at me and laughing his ass off!

As I stated in the past I believe the mortgage “assistance” was a quick fix to a gdp and a way for the govt to borrow money they didn’t have and needed. Now with health reform it is a way for them to require money they do not have and if they do not get they will all be out of a job because they have bankrupted EVERYTHING… again proof came about yesterday, one more time, when congress voted to take all student loans away from private lenders and make it solely the govt’s responsibility…. Ah, hello, people! If that isn’t a sign of them scrambling, nothing is. Please everyone, you must, absolutely must see through this and demand for it to stop before we are unable to stop it… again, as I stated yesterday, I am just not willing to trade a cancer victim for a Senate jet; our govt has done nothing but lie to us for years and now that we are awake, for the love of god, let’s stay that way and take back our country!… there are many other options to health reform. The main way to reform health in this country is simply  just a matter of  ridding ourselves of the govt corruption… until they are willing to do that, which they are not, screw them and let them shove their health reform with the rest of their bloody lost greed and the their mortgage fixes! Again, I remind you of Jefferson’s words:

“I predict future happiness for Americans if they can
prevent the government from wasting the labors of
the people under the pretense of taking care of them.”
–Thomas Jefferson–

As we saw and experienced with their help in the mortgage fiasco… we all took and continue to take a huge hit, one could go so far as saying the world felt  a huge financial devastation from their help there… are we willing to make it worse? Many have lost their homes, lost their jobs… are we willing to allow the very rich to keep getting richer off our hard earned money while more and more is taken from us? Do we, the average and poor americans have any room to make it worse so it can get better? I think so.

We can cut up our credit cards till the credit companies learn one more time that we the consumers are in charge. We can slow or bring to a hault our retail spending. We can refuse to have or purchase products that farm out our jobs overseas (and I understand, good luck with that one, and if you all know of any send them my way.) We can find the privately owned banks that haven’t been pushed under and move from the bigger banks that continue to keep screwing us (BOA for obvious reasons in the news of late, not to mention they were one of the biggest suppliers outside of CitiBank to illegal housing and banking, wells fargo, chase, etc…). We can sign petitions to recall our notes from GM, and all the banking institutions. We can get together as groups and find the corrupt and recall their asses. We can reach out and help each other. We can plant our own seeds and get prepared for a fallout. We can demand cig tax be  eliminated; no tax on soda or fast food–who the hell gives them the right to tell us what we can eat, drink, smoke… it is my constitutional right and fair play (and remember the govt won trillions of dollars from the tobacco industry to cover healthcare expenses… as a smoker, have you had your healthcare paid for? Absolutely not, the powers that be put that in a national children’s health care fund… and guess what? That money is gone, Kapoop… they spent it (and they were only suppose to spend the INTEREST of that money on that program… well guess what? Because they mismanaged that money we got a new 158% tax on cigs under that same disguise… and does that go to cover the cig smokers health insurance? Absolutely not, it goes towards the program they bankrupted. You think the soda and fast food tax will go to the obese health coverage? If you do you are more naive than I could think possible)… like i said yesterday, what will be next… before you know it there will be a sex tax. As a group as a whole we are pretty independent people. We are smart people. We can endure and create. We are survivors. We can come together during this time in a way we have since long forgotten… yet will quickly remember. We can effect change with OUR money… before they take it all from us and buy themselves bigger vineyards. We can take control before we give it all away. We can again become great, powerful, and prosperous… and above anything else ETHICAL… We have come too far, fought too hard, learned too much, to return back to the days prior to our constitution. We can reclaim that 50cents on the dollar and indeed use it for the poor… not their pockets and big business pockets!

Our govt on the other hand… well guess what?… THERE IS NO FALLING ROOM LEFT, the bottom has dropped out and if we don’t get our govt back in line working for us… we can all kiss away several American generation’s futures… if we let our govt go in the direction it is heading, the mortgage disaster will be heaven compared to what is yet to come; the middle class will become the new poor and the poor will be destitute beyond belief (just call your local not for profit agency and ask what has happened in the past several months to their donations due to the recent political changes). . . is this truly the American History you wish to be a part of? Or do you want our mark to be that we were the generation that woke up, came to life, took back our country from the corruption and greed of politicians too long left still? Today may we choose to stand with our Founding Fathers and say no more.

No more will you line your pockets. No more will you steal my money. No more will you cave to the lobbyist. No more taxation without representation.  No more will you deceive me. No more will you lie to me. No more will you rob future generations of their constitutional rights. No more will run my country for personal gain. No more will you run a-muck. No more will you silence me. No more will you try to divide the American people to manipulate profits. No more will you over-step your boundaries. No more will you weaken our position in the world. No more will you embarrass us. No more will you rob us from our dreams. No more will you repress us. No more will you steal from our children and their children. No more will you borrow. No more will you bail out. No more will you take over. No more will you make unsafe. No more will you line your pockets. No more will you manipulate us. NO MORE.

Let our generation be known for being those who reclaimed to its fullest “One nation, under God, INDIVISIBLE, with liberty and Justice for ALL.” We are at a crucial time in our country where the govt is using every tactic possible to divide us… to divert us from the real truth. . . and that truth is, while we were all living our lives American politicians through corruption and greed has bankrupt our nation, has and continues to steal from the poor and the middle class to give to the rich. It is our time  to come together, as one people and one voice to seek only the truth… And that truth is our politicians are and have been for far too long corrupt… let us all unite to mandate the change we were really looking for… and say to them what they once said to the world… “Either you are for us or you are against us…”

Today, let us stand together as One race and say        ………………………. NO MORE!………….

Have a grand day all. Peace.

I once read a book on Quentin Tarantino where one of his friends remarked that one had to be careful in a conversation around him… it may end up in one of his movies!…………. you know where I am going, don’t you?

That’s right my little crazies, and some of you may already know, if you are part of my circle (and obviously some who are not–stay with me. It will be clear soon) and we interact, you may very well make it into one of my blogs…………. Like this girl did today.

Now as an intro, let me share this.

If you are going to be some self-righteous naysayer and try to start some pissing contest with me make sure to drink plenty of fluids to load properly!… because I surely have or it wouldn’t be written.

If you are someone that wants to share your perspective, which is different than mine. By all means feel free. I am open to debate… yet please don’t try to back-door me with passive-aggressive remarks, cause than you fall into the above category and, well, hell, (see below)………………………………

Whatever you do, whichever category you fall under, do make sure to be current on my blogs before you spew or start pissing. Do not make the mistake of reading one or two posts and think you have me figured out–really, I  (and I am sure, as stated in the past, several ex’s too) only wish I could be that simple of a person. If you make that mistake you will most definitely take me out of context and you yourself will come out looking like a fool (and indeed only validating what I have said in past blogs about the importance of knowing history–the importance of educating oneself.) And if you do not want to do your homework, then bloody hell do not enter into debate or a pissing contest with me… for I will not come back and re-list the work I have already done to catch your sorry behind up. I will probably ignore you or delete you… with that said on to today’s blog.

Yesterday I posted a blog, which was a series of blogs on political thought. And if you have been following from the beginning, you will understand many things about my background that leads to this series of thought and/or perspective. Now if you just read yesterdays blog you may make the mistake to respond as this young lady did on facebook, now I have no idea who this person is. She is not someone who communicates with me, nor is she in my friends list…………………………. but here was her note to me:

I know. I know. I know… you know… I am homicidal, again.

I am not sure about the rest of you but last night’s Address to the Congress … wasn’t that the President flipping many Americans off?

What little trust I had in this administration went straight down the stool with that speech. I did not see a coming together Commander in Chief… I saw if you think like I think and if you don’t get your act together now.

For those that haven’t been keeping up or for those that haven’t been paying attention……………… I do not believe the American Government should be involved in any way or fashion in the Health, Auto, Banking industry… now he got into two without congressional approval; banking through the back door — stimulus got him in … then he rode that hard. . . And how he got the GM takeover without any vote–hell, I am still spinning on how that could have happened.

Americans all across the country are voicing these concerns at their town hall…

I AM GOING TO SAY THIS AGAIN… IF OBAMA OR THE DEMOCRATS WANT TO DICTATE THEY NEED TO FIND ANOTHER COUNTRY. THEY CANNOT HAVE  MINE. PERIOD. And personally exiling the whole lot of them would make me jump with joy.

THIS IS THE BOTTOM LINE…. OBAMA SAID IT LAST NIGHT AND HE COULDN’T HAVE BEEN MORE CLEAR. The insurance industry is 1/6 of our wealth. The govt is broke. The govt plans are broke. The federal reserve will soon be broke. They have misused OUR money. They have run us into debt… and not just us, our children and their children. THEY NEED THIS MONEY.

Obama talks about medicare working well… well guess what… Ah, they turned that over to insurance companies to handle the mismanagement and fraud– does Secured Horizons, SR Secure mean anything to you?– The government pays a huge discount in rate to docs and hospitals to capture as much money as they can from that plan (which is having to be captured by all of us when we are young–yes we overpay to make up the difference)… which is exactly what they will need to do to cover a Universal plan… and then you kiss your great docs and hospitals and care good-bye.

Lets look at a few points….

Pre-existing conditions… of for the love of god… If I knew you were carrying a bomb on to a plane… do you think I would insure you to take that plane trip? There is already a high risk pool which is exactly what he is talking about “creating.”

How does the uninsured move from 47 million to 30 million? Fact, O camp has stated all along that uninsured in this country was 47 million… now last night it was 30 million… what is up with that? Which figures are real? Do we really care which time the administration lied?

Illegals will NOT be covered… well, especially after yesterdays highly active debate over yesterdays blog (you all exhausted me yesterday–in a good way) Well, shit, as my facebook friend Denny pointed out yesterday many illegals do have fake ids…………. so the Senator was right, LIE.

Individuals pay 2/3 ‘s higher premiums than an employee pays for their coverage… In  California the premium for  Group Coverage is higher than the premium for a individual plan…

Blue Cross 2500 deduct plan… which is a very good plan. offering 25/75 split (meaning most major medical expenses are generally 25% cost to you of the NEGOTIATED RATE and blue cross pays 75%) with $25 office visits and full prescriptions benefits…. on a group that plan cost a company for a 40 year old individual $287 per month … on an individual plan that exact same plan cost the person/individual $138… now obama stated it was 2/3 higher…. In California employees must pay minimum 50% of the premium… that would make the group/company paid plan a min of 143.50 premium to the employee… yet if you get it on your own it is only $138… how is that 2/3′s higher? In my math it is actually less expensive. I can feel the smoke blowing up my ass… colorful smoke… but smoke all the same…

Now lets look at a State that has LESS COMPETITION–fewer insurance companies in the state… GA vs CA …

In GA which has half as much competition as California… (another of the Govt claims if we open up competition in a state where there is none) a 2000 deduct  with a 70/30 split cost for a 40 year old… are you ready $91.40… WTF… is my govt trying to tell me that is more? How is that?

Obama stated in his address that a person was canceled off their insurance coverage who was diagnosed with some serious disease because it was found out by the insurance company that they had Gallstones the patient never knew he had… well I am here to tell you… ANOTHER blatant lie…. THAT IS A SCARE TACTIC AT ITS BEST (something Obama accused talk radio and cable of)… it is a direct violation of the law to cancel you due to pre existing that is  NOT in your medical records… I will give you an example:

I had a client that moved to blue cross from Nationwide. Come to find out that person was pregnant (a pre existing). Indeed Blue Cross canceled them. I phoned up to the VP of the company. Where the VP explained to me that the client was pregnant before their coverage. I said, “Well that person had no idea at the time of the move to Blue Cross and unless you can prove otherwise it will be my recommendation they sue your behind.” The VP went back through their records and indeed found out that woman knew nothing about her pregnancy …. so she was instantly reinstated… keep in mind… that is what us insurance brokers are here  for. To work as your advocate… you go with a govt option plan and you remove your advocate… so the above… have fun with that under a govt plan!

Obama states that not “one dime” increase will come from you… ah, he promised me the middle class “absolutely no new increase in taxes” when he was running… my cigs went up 158% within a month of O being put in office… and for what? To reestablish Healthy families–a program the govt had run into the ground–does tea mean anything to you?… come on. Surely the American People are not that blatantly stupid?… I mean how are we going to cover all the HIV, Cancer, Leukemia, and the many other insurable folks at NO COST? Do you really think that is possible? And if there is money to be had somewhere else–as O stated in his address “it will come from wasteful spending now” … I am not sure about you but  WHY THE HELL ISN’T THE GOVT RECOUPING THAT MONEY FOR OUR CHILDREN NOW… TO PAY OFF OUR DEFICIT. . .  Really? Does that make any sense to you? How could it. Basically what O said, is saying, look, you are getting screwed. We know you have and continued to get screwed and if you follow THIS plan… hey, we will make sure you are not screwed any more. WTF!!!!? Take that off the deficit NOW. Screw the “Trigger” or the “single pay system.” Stop screwing me before you try to screw me more, Damn it!

Then we can move on to Torte reform… we will address a demonstration test of options there?… WTF… a cost of 680 million isn’t worth getting their hands out of your pocket NOW!!!!!

The opposing factors, talk radio, cable tv, opposing parties… “fear tactics”… I suppose when he, O, stated that Americans will die if not passed was mere fact and not a “fear tactic”? Oh for the love of God… does he think we are total idiots?

My all time favorite — what I think is and has been the REAL issue… Insurance industry is 1/6th of our economy… if the govt does not capture that it will lead to more job loss, a higher deficit… etc… NOW THERE IS THE REAL OBAMA PLAN.

Folks our govt has run themselves into the ground. Everything they have their hands in is bankrupt or almost bankrupt… if they don’t do something soon… kapoop! Who will pay their benefits?

I am done. You all can look up the facts. Personally, i think our medicare payments would be better suited paying an insurance company. Social Security would be better invested in low risk money market account…. and much stronger regulation of Medical and welfare… and indeed we already covered the illegal issue.

Have a grand day all. Peace.

I cannot hold back any longer. The issue has laid so heavy on my heart for a few days I cannot bear it any more.

Thank you Mister Jimmy Carter for getting into my head and sharing my truth…

I am just merely a racist…

Of course how I feel about what is going on in this country has absolutely nothing to do with:

A House representative when confronted that Health Care Reform was against the constitution argued that EVERYTHING congress does is against the constitution… Did he forget the oath they took to uphold the US Constitution? Boy have we the people been sleeping too long.

Political corruption… where pockets are lined and pork is distributed for campaign donations later.

Govt corruption, spending and waste is OUT OF CONTROL… if we get the mere medicare waste, wasted pork, torte law, ALL PERKS (including but not limited to the President and his spouse) elected officials gets, the ability to send illegals home… we add all those together, not only could we afford to give healthcare to more of our poor (we could damn well throw in the illegals we hopefully sent back home with that wealth of coverage) and then hell give us hard working folks who do go to work every day to earn a decent living and give us a big old fat tax return of the monies they have basically stolen from us for all these years we have been asleep at the wheel…. hell, we may even be able to pay off China or the middle east.

A president, vp, and speaker of the house that attacks from the podium… and when a representative speaks out in truth is slapped about publicly–when he was my only voice there among them all…LIE… and all those who cooed and stood and cheered like it was a flipping Chili Peppers concert–who were not the voice of my American Voice… are left alone. Inappropriate is inappropriate… the other asses weren’t at the Oscars and should have been reprimanded, imho, for treating the assembly with such disregard!

The fact that the first lady of the US has a 26 person PERSONAL staff paid by tax payers, during the greatest recession and debt of all years prior excluding the great depression, equaling around $2,000,000/ year… you know what that money could do for the homeless down on market street in San Diego?

The fact that during this same time of debt and recession the taxpayers are paying salaries for an additional 34 or 36 extra White House Cabinet czar employees who does god knows what… and what is their salary?… times 34 or 36? And who the hell are these folks and why don’t they need to be approved through the house and why the Hell are the crunched American tax payers  paying a salary of any of them?

And is Michele Obama and Biden’s wife getting a salary on the taxpayers dime?… I mean I could have sworn I saw that up on whitehouse.gov site for a month after inauguration… I also could have sworn I saw numerous articles and clips on it shortly after the president went into office. Yet now all those clips seemed to have disappeared from the Internet… even a CNN clip that once discussed it now goes to a dead link. What is up with that?

The fact that after the election the first lady was regurgitated on almost every major magazine cover out there… spread out like a super fashion model wearing Gucci, Dior; laying on high end silk couches, like being the first lady was somehow like being married to Rod Stewart… where were the homeless? Where were the uninsured? Where were the soup kitchens? Where were the youths of America? NOT ONE photo put her in the first lady role–she was a cover girl and imho a total disgrace to the office… All the while my business was losing clients due to the election and economy– I couldn’t afford to pay off a few thousand dollar credit card debt yet her bag, which wasn’t even big enough to hold my cigarettes (which went up 158% after they got into office) cost her over $18,000 bucks…. and one article discussed the fact that for an afternoon snack of caviar and champagne cost her  (or us) $266…. that is three credit card payments for me… that is enough to buy beans and bread for an entire shelter for christ sake.

The president of the US took billions, trillions of our money give to corrupt financial/banking industry and then using that as a back door to overtake them…WITHOUT CONGRESSIONAL APPROVAL

The president takes over GM, an auto company… WITHOUT CONGRESSIONAL APPROVAL… and with taxpayers dollars… again, during one of the greatest recessions and US debt periods ever… and while I am watching my small business clients run… I watch my taxes rise, screen my calls from Chase, and get my car excise tax doubled…. and must idly sit back while our govt rewards the very institutions that screw us every single day.

And now a take over of the Insurance industry under a guise of helping the uninsured. And for what? Because my Government has bankrupt every damned business they had ever laid their hand in?… so now, while we watch our taxes increase the govt will still be allowed to grow fat and sassy at the taxpayers expense? You want another jet to go see your mistress… sure, hell we own the insurance industry now… hell, knock yourself out! Get that bad ass jet… hey, and don’t forget to fuel up!… hahaha, its only the starving taxpayers; shit now when we need more money we can just clamp down on medical expenses… with the cancer rate that will give a few million more to throw in the pot! Go get that jet!

I watched for years mortgage companies give out Housing loans to folks who could not afford it. Indeed, I could have gotten on that band wagon. Surely at the rate they were going and the ease of cheating I could have bought myself a house… yet there were those of us taxpayers that didn’t buy into it. We KNEW we wouldn’t be able to come up with the payments five years down the road so we held to accountability… and for what? So we could suffer the consequences of Rangel and the many others who profited only to end in a fallout? And it appears all to familiar to me as the health insurance issue today… WE NEED TO PROVIDE MODERATE HOUSING LOANS TO HELP AMERICA’S POOR BE ABLE TO HAVE THEIR SLICE OF THE AMERICAN PIE. It was regulated and mandated by the house. The only ones who seemed to benefit from that was the govt … who increased the gdp and was able to borrow more money from china and the middle east, and our elected officials who got their pockets line from wall street fat cats…. and what excuse are they using to take over the Healthcare industry? WE NEED TO PROVIDE MODERATE INSURANCE TO ALL AMERICANS, yadda yadda… come on people!

I don’t imagine the fact that my country owes huge sums of money to communist and terrorist countries should not be any concern to me whatsoever?

Raising my cigarette tax 158% to pay for healthcare coverage of children in America because they bankrupt that company into the ground… along with social security, medicare, fed reserve, etc… and now what?… a soda pop tax? a fast food tax?.. shit they got away with it on cigs… why not? Where will that taxation without representation end? Will it be clogs next? Maybe polyester?

Nor should I be upset that although FEC investigated several times Bernie Madoff, who was still able to rip off a shit-ton of money from unsuspecting individuals and labor groups… And where the hell is that money? And whose pocket got lined there? What organization is or is going to benefit from that major con? Please don’t tell me Madoff and the mrs spent it… fiscally impossible.

Oh and I suppose my concern with the recent news of BOA lying to the taxpayers and share holders about M. Lynch’s 8.6 BILLION dollar bonus just after the tax payers bailed their asses out… oh, and when their lie was caught by the government agency set up to protect us, the American people, the FEC… they said oh, gosh, don’t worry about it… and issued them a fine less then my total credit card debt… Are you serious?

As an independent I am constantly being cut in a box of a radical, right winged, Nazi, astro-turf, extremist, anti-American or part of an “angry mob” established by fox news, whenever I verbalize my concerns. . . or told as a group I do not exist at all.– the American people do not exist!

Because I do not believe in abortions, for myself, I am a bit conservative in my values I am put on govt Homeland Security watch list as, of all things,( and along side returning American soldiers) a terrorist.

Watch my country elect a man with ties to extremist who went as far as supporting my countries enemies and indeed bombed political offices in the past…. and for the love of god, ACORN ah, $800,000 this now elect president paid them during the campaign for what? And what deal behind closed doors was offered in return?… did that have anything to do with HOW he got his votes? Why can’t I know what that money was paid for? which leads to…

Why are trillions of many independents tax dollars going to this ACORN from the stimulus (and was that Obama’s pay off to them for their help in getting him elected?) group who rallies and works for the far left side? And does that have anything to do with Daffy Duck, or all the dead guys who voted? Why does any united tax dollars go to one side or the other? Does that sound fair to anyone? Isn’t that kind of like our tax dollars going to the GOP? It is wrong on so many levels.

Truly not to sound like a radical here but one cannot help but stand in question with these folks… Why did so many wait so long for a birth certificate from a man who ran and won office to be produced?… over two and a half years (proof produced after he was in office–how can that happen?–and is indeed still questionable) from a guy who promotes and spews transparency… yet still to this day will not open up his college records for the many questioning American people to see on those documents exactly where he, at that time, claimed his home country was or who wrote his reference entrance letters into said colleges. These folks have a valid point–mr obama can you please explain to me, which you never have, how you got into that Jakarta Indonesia private school–which mandated you be a sole citizen of their country, which would mean you would indeed need to surrender your US citizenship (if indeed you ever had one)–between the ages of 6-10 or 12? When did you ever get your US citizenship back? Can you show the american people those records that verify that? Can the people see those Jakarta school entry records? If you are indeed a valid US citizen, why won’t you openly produce those records for all the American naysayers? And why, if all is legal and upfront, why the hell did it take your camp over two years to produce evidence of your Hawaii birth? And why doesn’t Americans have transparency on those request to see your school records? Americans demanded them from McCain, who was born out of this country. He produced them within a month with his explanation… why can’t Obama give the American people, who are asking, what they are looking for? Why the big deal is my question? If those folks are truly loons, why the hell not allow them a look see? If O camp has nothing to hide, why hide the records? It makes no sense to me.

The fear that if things in this country keep going the way they are, while my elected officials are tucked away behind the guards my tax money affords them, I may have to take up arms to protect my grandchildren.

While during the elections while the radicals were screaming in this country that Obama was an Islamic extremist, a plant, set out to destroy America I thought they were all crazy… yet with all this tension, with O’s insults over seas, with all this vast amount of money going out, with all these private industry take-overs… shit, one has to question who exactly are the crazies?… me or them?

The government is spending money at such a rate, any selfish person could care less… we, our generation, won’t feel its repercussions… yet for those of us that love and think about our grandchildren we do care whose pocket in politics gets lined, we believe that companies that are failing should be left to fail–we only care that our grandchildren be left with the REAL Constitutional America… a prosperous America… where they are not paying 90 cents out of every dollar to make up for our greedy govt officials losses–and that will be INTEREST alone, the deficit, not the actual DEBT… or possibly to be run by communist China who called in their marker for our debt… or worse yet the middle east.

I watch on TV as my President goes over seas and slams my homeland, slams officials Americans had put into office in the years past, and apologizing for my country, speaking as MY voice. Well by-god that wasn’t my voice and it certainly wasn’t my America he was speaking… so who the fuck was he representing then?

Watch as a government tries to treat enemies of the state… those that plot, behead and slay groups of Americans that did nothing to deserve such treatment… constitutional rights governed to OUR people for crimes against OUR own… which are rarely as brutal or as large scale as those they wish to now PROTECT. (When folks like me are put on terrorist watch list, actual terrorists are given the constitution… does that make sense?)

See on the news and several news clips how the Speaker of the House… you know, the one third in line for president, stand up in front of America and call out the CIA and past elected officials basically as terrorist themselves… the vary people that kept and continues to keep America safe… and then indeed to watch the Attorney General state he is going to investigate them for war crimes… now I am not sure about the rest of you, but if that announcement didn’t come at just the right time as if O was making threats to the House to play ball his way or he was going to throw all their asses under the proverbial bus on the highway… cause lets face it, if Bush or Cheney or the CIA goes down so will the House… because EVERYTHING went through congress and was indeed approved… so as an American one must ask themselves… is our national security meant to mean so little to the powers that be that it can be used as a political pawn so someone can get their way on health reform? Are American lives worth so little as greed?

Oh, and there is more… so much more that my head spins with it and I am having a difficult time keeping up with all of it. It is making me sick to my stomach and like many Americans I am even scouting other countries for future residence. And I think if I get called a fox girl one more time –I swear!

But boy, what a relieve when I read what old Jimmy said…

…which can now alleviate all my issues and distrust to just one itsy-bitsy summation of what the truth really is… what it is that is why I am feeling this way… no no it has nothing to do with anything above… whew, what a relief…

I am just a racist!

Well good to know it is just that I am a racist… cause instead of having to worry about all the above (and more) I can just go to San Quinten and visit Charles Manson to learn the art of peace/joy/love of all my fellows to the fullest!… maybe seek out Timothy Leary’s stash. What a burden has been lifted! Boy don’t I feel free!

So thank you president peanut. I feel so much better knowing all my discourse has absolutely nothing to do with the above. I am merely just a bigot!

As a toddler I saw the marches. I remember the fire hoses. I never saw the color of someone’s skin then. All  I remember thinking back then was what bad men they were holding those hoses.

And little has changed for me from then to now. And nothing, absolutely nothing or no one will force me to an ignorant mindset that existed before my time.

Excuse me for saying mr carter… You are an idiot!

Shame on you!

Shame on all of you who are making this about race!

Don’t we have enough to be worrying about then putting such nonsense on the table?

And for those that are supporting this president just cause they consider him black… double shame.

I think all we need to do now is make Pelosi, Reid, Boxer, Rangel (oh, wait, he already is) all black… then we can make my racist feelings truly, publicly official!

I never thought Carter was President material when he was… I guess he just proved me right.

ah, Mr. Carter?… while you have that nasty little finger pointing out at me, count how many are pointing back?…

I cannot help but think, wonder, what Mr. King would think of all this?… would he call me a racist?

I too have a dream… “this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: ‘We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal.’” The constitution has not changed and we have absolutely no right to take it away from my grand babies (any more than we had a right to take it away from certain ethnic groups in the past–have we learned nothing?) Corruption is corruption, no matter who is holding the hose… and I don’t know about the rest of you but, I am tired of being hosed!

Have a grand day all. Peace.

K, I am late, late, late. I had a hard time with what I should share.

I know.

Can you believe that?

Here is what I finally settled on…

There was a point in time in our Country, prior to 1935, when folks came to this country for its greatness. My grandmother on one side and my great grandfather on the other side were two of those people. Now I don’t know much about my great grandfather, I do know that my grandmother arrived on an over crowded boat from Ireland. The year of her arrival was 1910. She was eleven and arrived here with her several brother’s and sister’s, if I remember correctly 10 total. Although according to our times she was just a baby and void of her parents, who stayed behind in Ireland… she was indeed a woman when she stepped on that boat.

Now no one gave this woman/child a hand out. She didn’t come here looking for one. She came here because her parents told her of the American Dream. Where all things were possible, if one worked hard. Violet came here for the dream… not a life filled with repression from the British. And indeed, she built a life here from absolutely nothing. She worked hard. She endured. She fought against the odds. She persevered. She became a PROUD citizen of the US. Better yet, she survived. She prospered. She taught me of the value of food. “There are people in other countries that are starving. Finish your plate!” “People fought hard for the freedom you take for granted. Respect your elders.” “You don’t need that. There was a time in this country when folks couldn’t afford the basics. Save your money. One day you will need it.” It wasn’t until she was in her eighties that she was manipulated to return to the old country. She did so reluctantly. It was her first time back since her home country betrayed her.

At the time she was preaching I thought she was an old fogey… unable to keep up with the times. I was just incapable of comprehending what she was saying. She was the adult enemy. Now I am here to tell you, she was one smart cookie I should have paid closer attention to. Yet despite the fact of my youth, I still learned. Today I am discovering just how much my rebellious behind did learn. . . especially in these times, her words come back to me in full force with logic and reasoning.

How did she and so many others survive without welfare? How did they survive without govt support?… and more importantly, why would they want to travel “coffin” ships with nothing to nothing?… especially when there was nothing there for them… ah, the American Dream, indeed the American Dream. Home of the Brave. Land of the free.

Has the American Dream turned in to the American Care? Is our welfare country promoting immigrants by the droves because of our welfare system?.. and what characters are we enticing due to our protection and benefits to the poor?… our free medical systems?… the free cash for the stay at home folks?… And more importantly, have we become what we have attracted?

And who the hell is protecting our boarders from such invaders?

When my nana came here she did so, as I said earlier, to pursue the American Dream… One Nation under God… Land of the free… not like it is today… One Nation under shhhhhhhhhhhh… where religious freedom has turned to Atheist promotion.

Welfare brought a whole new class of citizens to our country. If you are sick… shit, go to America. They will take care of you… just show up at their hospital. Are you having a baby?… shit, jump over the boarder… they will deliver the new one… oh, and if you stay?… they will get you hooked up on free money… yepper, every month… more than it cost you to live here in half a year. It is grand. Don’t worry about working for it. It is free. The government gives it to you. So leave that damned cardboard box and turn that Chevy into a boat… it is all there in America for you! ………………………………………………

Can you now hear my nana rolling in her grave? Feel the ground rumbling? That is everyone who came here for the Real American Dream…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

And it wasn’t welfare and free medical!

I can.

“We have a problem here in America with the poor” … as so many are preaching today. Yep…. but my question is, have we promoted it?

America land of the free… whole new meaning, yes?

IMHO…. you betcha! Indeed, my nana had something to teach me. I see it today, more than ever… Can you?

Busy, Busy, Busy day today.

To let you all know a few tid-bits…

Yesterday I was made aware that I made someone’s “Fav writers on twitter” list… isn’t that something for the little runaway that thought she could… I am not sure who you are–I am not that savvy, sorry– but do drop me an email? I really love touching base with all you folks and have made some very wonderful friends that way!

My new friend Barb in Minn, you know the pizza lady?… well she shot me an email and said that one of those Courage of Fear 5 star review folks, Brandi I believe it was, lent Courage to her neighbor Bernie (her actual name is Barbara–isn’t that spiritual!?) Well Bernie not only read Courage of Fear in a day, she did so in-between laundry and cooking dinner! Can we have an Amen, Sister?… I told Brandi, who also shared the story with me on facebook, that we needed to get a good fight on over that Wonder-woman belt Bernie has… Barb said she liked the book so much she was going online and picking up three more copies! Can you believe that? Bernie also reported she wanted the book longer cause there was so much in it she liked she wanted to re-read it just one more time… could the little runaway be more pleased? Absolutely not. Truly nothing better. I am overwhelmed — not so much so I want you all to stop buying Courage by any means– with joy. Thank you all so very much!

Now to today’s blog……………………………………………

I am sure at one time or another you all have had the experience of the not a date but sure the heck is a date come to find out experience, right? You know where someone says hey lets do this or that. Inside you know there was never any chance you would actually date that person. So you nicely say …

oh, let me give you an example………… k, I am going to share one of my stories. I know. I know. Whoat whoa…. just bare with me my crazies I really have a point today as you can tell by my title. Ready? Okay………………

I lost my very dearest closest girlfriend to a sudden death. And, yes, if you have been keeping up with my blogs you can read about this in the blog titled “Feathers” to get a little bit better understanding of my mental state at the time. It wasn’t good. I can tell you that. First “the one” had left yet again, then 9/11, then my friend Debra passed… and truly all of it just put me over the edge mentally… as a matter of fact i actually retreated with my tent to the desert for about two weeks.  I went there with the specific intention of finding a raven or a cliff. My thought was I was going to get relief one way or another…. I was beside myself with the grief. As you can see, because I am here reporting, I found my raven (which is why he is in Courage of Fear, btw)… or maybe that would be better stated he found me. A truly incredibly spiritual story I must save for another time.

After my return from the desert a very good male friend phoned. He had known deb and myself well for as long as i had been in Cal. He knew of my, how do I put this?… ah, poop, funky state. You know that state you can get into when life seems to think you are spiritually bullet proof and that you can handle the weight of the world… so it slings it at you?… yet you know inside there is just absolutely no flipping way you can make it through… yet the curve balls keep coming… you keep bending trying not to break (again in Courage of Fear)?… until you surrender, all deer-eyed and shout out “Enough already Damn it!”…. yeah, well that is how I was at the time… like I said, funky.

Any way this gentleman friend suggested that maybe it would be good if I just forgot my troubles for just a few hours (k, ladies, you know where this is going, don’t you?) Now keep in mind, this friend used to date my good friend who passed, deb… and all women know you never take a friends left-overs, for one. For two, a true girlfriend never, well seldom if ever, date a friends ex… it is just bad karma.

So, when X asked me to the movies I surely thought he meant as friends. Easy enough to surmise, yes? After all we were friends… and lets face it I was much more of a basket case than I was when I am emotionally healthy–which says a lot– so surely, what healthy man in his right mind would hit on a girl as crazy as I was at the time, right? (Yeah, I know you know where this is going.) Not to mention the vulnerable factor. I mean come on now. I was the stick in the Flintstones… “BAMB! BAMB! BAMB BAMB!” What girl wouldn’t be, right?

I agreed to the escape to the movies with my good friend.

A few hours later I get a voice mail from my male friend that informed me he just wanted to be clear that he wasn’t looking to go out as friends. He wanted that evening to be considered a date.

Whoat Whoa!!

No pressure. Just think about it.

Hell to the no. I didn’t need to think about it. My heart sunk. I just didn’t want to deal with that on top of everything else. It was just too much. I was just too vulnerable. I surely wanted to be held. Yet I didn’t want to end up hurting someone… use someone to relieve my pain. So, hell to the no.

I took some time to shake my fist and rant at my Creator. After I calmed, I phoned my friend and pretty much advised him what I wrote above. “However flattered I was… yadda yadda… and if  ‘date’ was what he was looking for, we should just not go at all.”

He said okay and we left it at that.

Yeah, right….

A few hours later my friend phoned and advised me he had thought about it and well, he still wanted to go out.

I advised I didn’t think it was a good idea. Maybe some other time. I was just tired.

He assured me it would be fine. He just really thought I should get out. Not to worry. It would take my mind off things.

Reluctantly and too pooped to fight, I agreed.

The coffee before hand was great. Bless his heart he tried to crack some jokes.

Then off to the movie house. He got some snacks and some drinks and we made our way in. We sat towards the back and off to the side. I don’t remember which movie it was, really unimportant.

What I do remember was the minute the lights went off so his arm came up and around my shoulder.

Excuse the language but we must stick to facts (so for those that are sensitive and have asked me to curve it–skip to next paragraph now!) FUCK, flashed into my head. And not as in him or me doing it. It wasn’t a good making love one night stand enjoying it kind of fuck. It was that sinking in my chest… how do I snap my fingers and just disappear kind of F***… I was just too tired and before I knew it he was making out with me on my couch. Again, just too tired… yet can say not too tired to be able to  end it there.

And quite frankly, our relationship pretty much ended right there. We each lost two friends during that time.

Now why is she telling us this story you are probably wondering.

Well, I am glad you asked.

You all probably have gathered I stay current on what is going on in the news… one could say more than most… that is until I feel homicidal and force myself a break…and these days there is nothing, and I do mean, absolutely nothing that can make me feel more that way then the queen idiot (and I abhor that word) herself, Nancy Pelosi.

–Really, San Francisco? What were or have you been thinking there? You are giving the rest of California a really bad shake here with her. I am about ready to move up there to run myself… What is up with her? Is it because she looks so much like a transsexual, is that it? What on God’s green earth ever made her look anything less than scary? Really? I want to know? Help me out here? And that is before she opens her mouth… when that happens I swear swarm of small flies are going to gush from her lips at any moment. They would have to… surely NO ONE can be that blatantly stupid… and I don’t like that word either… but come on now? Nazi’s? Astro-turf? CIA? (I mean doesn’t the woman know if the CIA goes down you can bet your bottom dollar so will she?) All this Bush blame game and deflecting… Come on now, San Fran unite! That women is whacked. Plain and simple. I think the Botox has numbed her brain. She flips us all off every chance she gets! She must be some descendant to Hitler–you know that whole expression when you are pointing your little judgemental finger at someone else you have the rest pointing right back at YOU, kind of thing?  Really now? Surely no one can be that blatantly stupid?

Anyway… a few days ago old Scary Nancy gets in front of the camera and adamantly and vehemently and categorically states “there will be a health reform bill. It will definitely have a public option in it… and it will pass the house, with the public option… period.”

To hell with what Americans want!… that is me paraphrasing, but not much paraphrasing.

Then yesterday Botox Brain-dead Nancy’s whole tune changed… or did it… very meekly in front of the camera–you know with that kiss me quick before I bend you smile?… a total (or was it) flip… well, we will pass health reform bill without a public option…

But it will have a TRIGGER in it…

So, what that means, she reports, is if insurance companies don’t get under control it will trigger a single pay system…

Holy mary mother!!!!!! Does the house think we are that bloody stupid that we are not going to see that as a back door for them to get their single pay system?

Where does the 10th Ammendment play into this whole GM, Bank Takeover, Public “health reform” single pay system?

Folks I have an insurance business. Yes that’s right. The three largest costs to your insurance premiums are  Fraud, frivolous lawsuits and drugs…………. all of which the government regulates now and does nothing about. Why is that? Could it be the lobbyist?… you know the ones Obama promised to take care of during his campaigning?… Could it be the power and money the Lawyers and Pharmaceutical companies throw at the politicians?

I believe many well-meaning folks are confusing Health Reform with US Politician Reform.

A trigger. Really?

Ah, Nancy? I ‘ve never had Botox… I am not brain dead!

I don’t know about you, but has the lights gone out and is that Nancy trying to put her arm around me?